| hmm |
[Oct. 20th, 2005|06:02 pm] |
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| |  bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Disturbed- Ten Thousand Fists | ] |
Wow I haveint updated in a while. Well Ash and I went on a break then got back together. So everythings good there, shes the best. School is boreing, work sucks. So I guess theres really not much to update about. I got told today by the super intendent of Vo-tech that I'm the leader of my class and that I set a good example. So I guess my plan to take over the world is comeing together. My minions are loyal! But any way, yeah.....bored. |
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[Oct. 9th, 2005|12:19 pm] |
Smart Paladin
81% Combativeness, 33% Sneakiness, 58% Intellect, 69% Spirituality |
Valorous! Noble! Or possibly just a self-righteous jerk (but with the brains to keep you alive!)... You are a Smart Paladin!
Paladins are holy warriors. They are valorous defenders of the light. Unfortunately, most of them are so ardent in their defense they tend to meet sticky ends faster than you can say "rampaging red dragon." Many people look up to Paladins, while others just consider them stuck up, overbearing, or self-righteous.
Fortunately for you, unlike most Paladins, you're pretty smart. Which means that you're more likely to fall into the "admired" category, rather than the "obnoxious" or "dead" categories.
Much like the crusades, you manage to combine violence and religion, though unlike the crusades, you add a healthy does of intelligence. You may be a staunch defender of the faith, a valorous champion of the weak, or the stuff that jihads are made of. Which ever one you are, just be happy that you’ve got the smarts to back it up and make it work. |
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My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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You scored higher than 88% on Combativeness |
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You scored higher than 25% on Sneakiness |
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You scored higher than 40% on Intellect |
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You scored higher than 93% on Spirituality |
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| I'm tired... |
[Sep. 30th, 2005|09:51 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  melancholy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Scarborough Faire | ] |
I'm tired of worrying, I'm tired of haveing to explain things to people and them going "No thats not why I did it" When they accutally did, I'm tired of never really being a part of anything, never really haveing an intelegent conversation with another person. I'm tired of the monotonous flow of life, its all boreing. Its so predictable. All my life I've been on the outside of things, studying. And now I know what people will do, how they react, what they're acctaully thinking inside and what the little hints and looks mean. And I'm tired of all that, I'm tired the predictablity of life, and not being able to be apart of the predictability. Never going out with the guys, never feeling apart of the larger picture. I just want to be someone that someone else wants to hang around with, and wants to talk to, not some burden on every one. I dont want to be the lone one that no one talks to. The one that sits down at a table and gets looks from every one. But I cant change it, this is who I am, this is the way I think. I think out of logic and logic says, dont get mixed up in that of the mundane world or you'll get lost in its swift flow and loose track of your inner self. |
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| hmm |
[Sep. 23rd, 2005|09:54 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | lonely | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Beatles- Hey Jude | ] |
I dont really know what to write right now but I'm lonely, no one that wants to really talk is on AIM right now and I feel like sayin stuff cause I get frustrated some times. Ashleys at her football game which I couldint go to because I have to work early in the mourning. I'm not complaining cause I'm working early so I can go to homecomeing with her. I'm just frustrated for some reason, dont really know why, I should be happy. My brother is fianlly getting the fuck out of my room (Yeah hes no longer moveing out, hes getting the fuck out). But hes takeing for ever to do it. He owns the house an he needs to get out. My job sucks! I hate the place I work at. I have 5 frickin bosses and hear about my mistakes 5 different times. I never know when I have to work more then 2 days ahead of time, which sucks when I want to go to quest or something because I cant conferm that I'm going untill that week. I didint get to go to the con this weekend. I dont really feel bad though, I payed and am getting my point, besideds, I didint like the con all that much last time I went. School is going ok except my mom is even more on my back about my grades and stuff. She's acting like I'm her property! I understand that shes in charge of me but I'm not her slave. I'm pissed off at my step-dad. He can be such an ass-whole. I get yelled at for not doing chores, and I haveint been able to do them because I've been at work. He is fricking stealing my cat, I sware, and he still doesint do anything. I haveint been able to relax since january of this year. My neck hurts like hell. I cant move my back any more because of the tenseness. I feel like I want to cry but when the urge comes nothing comes out. No music help to ease my mind any more, I cant find anything that will work. School people arent as bad, but there are still those girls that I cant stand cause they are annoying and want to hug me every day. Then there are the people who only ever talk about drugs and sex, like thats all thats suppose to go on in our minds. I never get to school on time for breakfast any more because my bus shows up 5-10 minuets later then last year. The woods that I normally go into to relax in is getting torn down....ugh! I just wish I could relax for once. I hope something or someone or someplace comes along soon to help me relax, because nothing I've tried so far has worked. I still dont have my permit because my mom hasint had time to take me. My brothers weding is in a week, I have to get all dressed up for that. *sigh* Tomorrow will help though. Homecomeing with Ashley should help a lot. |
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| SNUFFELS!!!!! |
[Sep. 9th, 2005|09:39 pm] |
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| |  giddy | ] |
I got me an new kitten!!! I have named her Snuffels after the name Harry calls Sirius when Sirius is in dog form in the Harry Potter books. She is so Cute! Black and grey tiger stripes with a little white around her green eyes. Shes so awsome!!! |
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| School and what not |
[Aug. 30th, 2005|09:19 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | hyper | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Rock you like a hurricane- Scorpions | ] |
Well I'm back in school. It rocks, cause I like to see people get in trouble because I never get in trouble. Is that mean of me? That like to see those who have no justice and disapline be brought to justice? I guess I just want stupid people to learn there lesson. They changed a lot of stuff in my school this year, but I like it because things are more organized and my classes are a lot more fun. Quest rocked last weekend. My character got tortured and had a horrible time but I loved it! My girl friend is awsome! Ashley rocks so much. We are going to see the movie Red Eye this saturday with my dad. Hopefully he and my step mom will go see another movie. Well thats all I got for today kids :) |
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| hey |
[Aug. 7th, 2005|10:53 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  busy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Eve 6- Heres to the nights | ] |
Wow I haveint updated in a while. Then again I haveint been doing much and at the same time I've been busy lol. I've had to work so frickin much. Its driveing me crazy with the hours they scheduel me. Like 10-8 of 11-8. Yeah 10-8....on a fricking saturday! Oh well, school will be here soon. Ashley is in Florida and I miss her like crazy! Its ok though shes haveing fun and I know she misses me too. She is so fricking awsome though. I've wanted to go out with some one who was a lot like me for a while and she is. She rocks! Well back to life. *Sigh* |
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| wtf.... |
[Jul. 26th, 2005|11:47 pm] |
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| |  crappy | ] |
Here I am at my brother, the happyest most relaxing place I've ever known so far in my life. Yet through all that I still seem to find myself a bit depressed. I dont know why exactly though. I mean, I'm here hanging out with my brother,I just got a new girl friend, even though shes miles away and I miss her. But thats not it, I dont know what it is. I just feel alone and lost and so self loathing. I just feel like I dont deserve anything. Not being happy and relaxed, and not being sad and stressed out. I'm just tired, very very tired, and I want to sleep for a long time and dream my fears and emotions away. But I cant. I just feel like I want to be numb but at the same time I want to reach out for some one to share emotion with, and I dont mean just telling them about it. I mean I want them to feel what I feel and know what I know. ugh. Idk...at least its raining out |
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| YAY!!!!!!! |
[Jul. 17th, 2005|10:55 pm] |
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| |  ecstatic | ] |
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| | Sandstorm | ] |
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!!!! I had the most awsome day! I went to Lizis part and hung out with all of them and swam. I dont like to swim but its ok cause the day just rocked so much any way. Then I got to sit with Ashley on the couch and talk to people and watch t.v. I didint get a chance to ask her out but I did tonight....and she said yes! This kicks ass. :-D |
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[Jul. 9th, 2005|02:46 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  apathetic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Classical Piano | ] |
Eh...I'm still bored, and lonely. I cant wait to go to my brothers in two weeks, its so relaxing there. I just get to sit around nd do nothing witho ut my parents nagging at me or haveing to worry about any one. My back is really tense too. The one mussle feels like a bone. I really wish people would want me to go out and hang out with them. It really sucks just sitting her with my brother, who is still annoying, and doing nothing. Oh well, stuff will get better eventually...hopefully. |
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